Want Some Popcorn?
Posted in ChunkyMonkey and tagged with baby, break ups, ChunkyMonkey, motherhood, sleeping on 03/30/2009 04:27 pm by Jerseygirl89You know that feeling after you’ve just ended a bad relationship, that mix of elation and dread? One minute you’re happily belting out the Soupdragon’s “I’m Free” and the next you’re furtively throwing popcorn at the couple making out in front of you at the movie theater? (Um, that wasn’t me. I’m just imagining here. You know, creative license.)
Last night I ended a bad relationship. Or rather, a bad part of a relationship. As this is really one of those relationships that never ends, just evolves. . .
ChunkyMonkey slept in another room last night.
A couple of months ago, ChunkyMonkey slept through the night, or only woke up once. But as he’s gotten older, he’s actually become a worse sleeper. I think he was bothered when Hot Guy and I came to bed, often at separate times. And I think I was so bothered by any noises he made in the night that I may have been a little too attentive. Suffice to say, this past week he’s been waking every hour and a half.
So I have ended the first stage of our relationship. We’re now sleeping in separate rooms.
When I went to bed last night, I felt a moment of freedom and joy as I flipped on the overhead light and the TV. And I think ChunkyMonkey felt it was right as well, since he slept from 8pm until 4:45am, and then went back to sleep until 7am. I haven’t been so well-rested since. . .since that brief period when he was sleeping through the night.
But waking up this morning, well, I felt a little bit of the dread. A little bit of the “my last baby sleeps better without me and doesn’t need me quite so much anymore” feeling. And thus I am tempted to throw popcorn at passing moms with newborns.
I won’t, of course.
At least, not until ChunkyMonkey stops nursing and I’m really, really free. And sad.
March 30th, 2009 at 8:33 pm
I know that feeling so well.
*sighs*
I’m holding her as close as I can.
March 31st, 2009 at 8:43 am
Just wanted to let you know how much I enjoy reading your blog. I tagged you on mine today with the blog friends award.
March 31st, 2009 at 11:02 am
a smile and tears at the same time! seems that is the MO of moms! glad you both got some good rest though!
March 31st, 2009 at 4:10 pm
Awe…
I think mine might have been too close together for the sleeping in separate rooms to bother me. I was really, really tired…
Now, when littlest started Kindergarten… and ran in like it was the greatest thing in the world to be a big kid like his brother and sister… and barely waved at me as he ran to catch up with his friends….
I got in the car and cried. I couldn’t even believe I was crying… I mean you’re waiting for it for so long… to have a few minutes to yourself… but yeah, sometimes it’s hard to let go… even when it’s only a few hours.
March 31st, 2009 at 8:35 pm
awwww- it’s okay and you’ll be thankful in the long run. i promise!
March 31st, 2009 at 10:57 pm
Ahh! I just spent QUITE a long time reading your site and catching up on your life! It’s been way too long and I apologize for my blog-world absence.
Anyway, I realize that this is totally not the same thing…not even slightly…but I just had a breakup with Grey’s Anatomy. It’s been disappointing me for years now and it was time to move on. I’ll try throwing popcorn at the TV next time I see a commercial for the show. Perhaps it will help all of this anger in my gut…
April 1st, 2009 at 8:15 am
So many stages and so much melancholy of motherhood. Try to enjoy enjoy your sleep — there’s still plenty to come!
April 1st, 2009 at 12:43 pm
Ahh… I remember that day. The break-up, feeling nervous and a little scared, wondering if this time it would stick or if you’d have to open yourself up again…
Glad it worked last night, hope it works again!
April 1st, 2009 at 8:33 pm
Becky – You’d better be!
DMLD – You are so sweet! Thank you!
Silken – I guess I just wasn’t expecting it yet.
Merry – I was definitely not so torn up with the first two. Kindergarten. . . .heck, I’ll probably cry when the oldest starts!
Jennster – Oh, definitely. Heck, it’s been two days and I’m already more thankful!
Colleen – I know exactly how you feel about Grey’s. I still record it, but I probably won’t next season. And I won’t be too sad about it, either.
PunditMom – That is definitely true.
VirtualSprite – Exactly! It’s kinda working, that’s the best I can say for it.
April 3rd, 2009 at 8:54 am
Totally feel you on this one! I have Googled pregnancy after tubal like 100 times since I weaned #3. Not a chance. Oh well, what’s an infertile girl to do? Your blog is AWESOME!